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a rollercoaster mind...

2009-06-07T22:14:00.000-07:00

it was the camp cramming season..then the camp came, post camp tours, cebu peeps came and left, what has been installed in our hearts will never be forgotten and always be remembered..time flies a little too fast..the "bf thing" issue came and left..it's the same issue, the same issue i felt that i didn't want to meddle with before the bf issue even came.

i have this "best friend" (na mejo magulo), isang magulong nilalang! haha nilaglag ba!?! anyways, mabait naman cya in fairness..this is what happened, a friend of mine told me she wanted to talk to me, e sinabi ni myk tinext daw cya non the other day and he asked if we were also texting so i said no coz we weren't..so it gave me an blurry thought of what was happening.before sunday even came, myk and i were texting already talking about it..to tell you the truth, 'they' seem not to understand, thinking that they know everything even to the point of personal stuff. kung bakit my feelings daw ba kming mag bestfriends? haller. ayoko lang patulan kaya binabalik ko lang ung mga tanong and accusations nila sakin and sa kanya.ang pangit tuloy nang dating ky myk, at least ako kilala ko na cla ng matagal e cya lately lang and then like that pa.hay. tingin tuloy ni myk masama cya at ayaw nila sa knya. e ang dating naman skin e ako ang masama at nilalayo nila ko ky myk kasi mkakasama sa kanya.hay, nag uusap lng kmi, kumakain, pag lumalabas.masama ba yun?!?
i can't get their point really, up until now the topic hasn't been brought up yet. i don't want to open up to them.but it also sometimes gets me in the middle..paminsan kc dko rin maasahan c myk, one day i'm fighting for him and the next, he doesn't seem to pop out..you know that feeling..kya i'm just taking it slowly..take it slowly man! hehe..:P

a night at the hospital

2009-02-11T02:11:00.000-08:00

it was february 6, 2009, a friday night, was supposed to go out on a concert but wasn't allowed to(i was that tired also so i didn't push to go). miday had free tickets of kjwan.it was in makati anyway and i was too tired to go alone by myself on a cab. so there, kemi and i just went to smb to window shop and eat dinner. we took out food for pa at chowking..then we went home coz it was closing na..hehe.so there, the unexpected happened again...for the second time for the year, it happened..this time, a shorter version.. i woke up seeing ma near the door and kemi all dressed up and asking " why are you all dressed up?"......then they told me i had a seizure again and we had to go to the hospital for emergency..so i dressed up, i felt my pillow was so so wet..in the emergency room..tests after tests..i felt like a normal person coz my seizure was finished but they required me to be confined. i was at the seventh floor.it was my first time to be confined on the patient's bed.with a dextrose on my left hand..i felt like i was really sick..because of that.every two hours my nurse came to check my bp and ask questions in the middle of the night!imagine!what answers can u give?!? anway, the doctor came early next morning, he adviced me not to be stressed and i can't stay late at night na..he prescribed 2 tablets per day for the rest of my life! phew! miday, carms, and lyna visited me on my bed..they stayed there for about 2 hours i think..we ate chips,they brought other yummy stuff...we were happy the doctor said we could leave the night itself and not to stay until the next morning..i was normal naman just because it might happen again they had to confine me and had the think stick through my veins..iv is what they call it...i cried when the dextrose was taken out..it was painful! it's feb 11 now and i'm feeling ok..i might go to work tomorrow.i was not really feeling very the past three days because of the medications. the medicine's side effect was dizziness and nausea..and boy it was really nauseaic! my world was really moving! i went to work half day but couldn't help the dizzy feeling and asked pa to pick me up again..then i was on leave the next two days..the doctor lowered the dosage, instead of 400mg a day 200mg nlng..so i'm feeling kinda ok now..i just drink the medicine at night and hopefully don't get morning sickness..

a sweet night

2009-02-04T22:34:00.000-08:00

it was the sixteenth of january 2009, me and my friends went on a night out just around the area. a night of sweet stuff. decided to treat dessert since it was my birthday the other night. we decided to eat at sex(sinangag express). i ate dinner already so i didn't eat na. some of us ordered chilled taho.wow! it was so yummy! then unexpectedly, you know who came. miday saw it first coz they were facing the parking lot. she said omg! it's kris! what the?!? i was facing backwards so i didn't believe at first. they said, yup he's here.oh my?!? i said goodeve to sir rajan..he looked kc at me.so there,,he sat pa facing me..oh men! what the tlga. aun, after that he said bye lng..texted some messages.they said nga i should not have replied. eh what can i do..he's asking questions e..so we continued our chikahan at sex. then went to jollibee for the 'sponsored' sundae desserts..then proceeded to bastille.we had a mini tea party..we ordered peppermint tea.i did not like it that much. we also ordered cakes..sugarfree cakes..well, it was a sweet night literally. i had to go home early coz i did not know still the results of my brain test. so pa was looking for me at about 10pm only..imagine!!

coincidence? na ah..

2009-02-04T02:17:00.000-08:00

so much coincidences..
january 24-my lola's bday..january 24- my first boyfriend's bday
january 5-my grandparents' wedding anniv..january 5- my last boyfriend's bday
i know of 8 people who has the same bday as mine..:P
kris' fave number since childhood..8
my fave number since my highschool days ..11
number 8 in the alphabet-letter H
number 11 in the alphabet-letter K

they follow the same line.. (exes)
letters JKLM(m.u. lng kmi btw.wala pa..hehe)

starting the year right

2009-02-03T05:04:00.001-08:00

it's the year 2009, year of the ox they say, don't care anyway..hehe..so there let's start off..

we had our new year's eve celebration at lucena..and it was so so fun..food food food..i see food everywhere! dec. 30..we came home late after the reunion at cavite..we had a nice sleep.woke up the next day feeling sick.yup i had colds the whole time..hay, anyway, i went with my cousin gemi and the oldies at sm to buy stuff for our celebration. ma and my tita shopped at the grocery while my cousin and i visited stores.. so there, the others met up with us and we played at the arcade.it was fun by the way! so there, evening came, other relatives came and we celebrated the new year together.lots and lots of good food. we ordered pizza, kfc chicken, nachos with salsa (nice recipe by the way!), afritada, pasta, and all those filipino dishes, lechon!, buko salad, brownies, icecream! hay! what a splurge!

then the new year..it was the second day of the new year. we went to landmark in the morning to buy dresses for tita susan's wedding at fernwood gardens. nice wedding, the ambiance, food, and everything that came with it..

january 3 2009, a saturday..my sister was awakened by my movements on my bed. we were on a double-decked bed and she was lying on top..she saw me shaking with my face head down on the pillow. so, she woke me up..but, i couldn't be awakened. she called for help, still, i didn't wake up.. they rushed my to the hospital, my mom said i stayed in the emergency room for about 30 minutes...then i woke up! thank God i did! many things have happened, i had my blood taken, i was like shaking the whole time they said.glad i wore terno nighties that night! hehe.anyway, there, i had my eeg, and the neurology thingy. i actually forgot what happened that day. they say after one has their seizure, deep sleep follows then a short term memory loss..so there, i can just recall some details about that day. even the next day i can't remember that much..i was really thankful i was able to wake up from that 'sleep'...but i still had to take my mri test..and golly it was unforgettable and scary! hehe..imagine yourself in a coffin..unable to move for 45 minutes with a needle pinching on your right hand! with only your eyes moving! man i was like going crazy! unforgettable experience! but thank you Lord for saving me! i know each day comes from you and it taught me to live each day at a time..you really don't know what will happen to you the next day or even the next minute!

it's the 3rd day of february now and whew how time flies! tomorrow is the silver anniversary of my parents! wow, i thank God for giving them another year to celebrate their relationship! hehe..mushy, anyway, this is all for now i'm gonna update this real soon! :P

yikes!

2009-02-02T02:21:00.000-08:00

i know it’s not supposed to be known..others who were caught were asked to resign..even those with a different nationality were asked to leave..but..it happened the day before christmas eve…i was the last one to shake his hands and wish him a very merry christmas..he didn’t let go and asked me if i was still heartbroken..what??!!? how in the world did he know it was me and how did he know that my heart was broken..yes he knew,but he wasn’t supposed to know who..i dunno, news spread fast.i know that his father knew about it but didn’t know who was “the one”..well, he just told me to let go and let it all out..” you know what, better replace him with another one”..hehe nice advice..well, everyone knows now i guess and they know it was ‘me’..hay, i hope he signs my check knowing all these..

aahh..biggie!

2009-02-02T02:15:00.001-08:00

it’s 5:40 am..can’t sleep..ahhh…way way past my bedtime..i drank too much coffee..caffeine effect..the coffee was good by the way..hehe..anway, it’s getting bigger by the minute..do i have to seek medical help?!?! i dunno..i’ll give it a day or two..then i will or just abide with the good ol’ saying..prevention is better than cure..hay,,dunno what to do..still mingled with everyone with that bandage on..
i’ll try sleeping..anway i have 2 more hours to go before my alarm rings..whole day ahead of me..meeting with the marketing team later at shang..have to drink vitamins! gatorade at least…

whatever...

2009-02-02T02:11:00.000-08:00

i dunno but it just appeared..it was there,,no doubt..it was as tiny as it could be..time passed and it grew..it grew to a level that it was undeniable..was it there for a reason?..i really dunno..but i know i was not supposed to go out and interact..

two thousand and eight

2009-02-01T20:51:00.000-08:00

hi there! it's the year 2009 now and i remember setting my hands on this blog way back 2 years ago! imagine how time flies! anyway, i'm writing this to give you a brief summary of the past year-2008.

many things have passed, many incidents have happened, some was for my good, some i regreted happening..well anyway, let's start off..

the month i celebrated my 23rd year on this planet.the month when my grandparents' celebrated their 50th year wedding anniversary--january..it all happened in a flash. i'ma tell you what happened coz i know it's worth telling. my cousins were in our house for a vacation, the year was just starting so they were still on a "vacation" mode. my grandma thought they were just there for a vacation ( we went to global fun the night before the surprise wedding celebration and i was sooo dizzy..imagine!) anyway, we made this video presentation of the past years of their married life..in secrecy.. the day came, January 5, 2008, a saturday.. they all thought we were going to moa for a simple get together dinner.. pa said they would just drop by the church to get something, little did they know that everyone was there waiting for them..at last, they came, la was like crying already, the church was filled with flowers and wedding stuff--they were going to have a wedding program! sweet! there were guests everywhere with their semi-formal attire. we had gold motif by the way and mcbc didn't look like what it was supposed to be-it was really like a formal wedding..they were so happy and they were happier when they saw their only daughter standing there with them--tita te straight from cebu whom they haven't seen for ages! well, the wedding ceremony was unforgettable and i think they won't ever forget that!

next, i was in a relationship with this guy which lasted for about a month! imagine..i opened it up to my parents, and they seemed to disagree so they told me to break up with him, i did but i was still attached to him. i dunno, i think i said the 'yes' word because i just pity him. i dunno with myself, i was kinda lost that time.because of the other guy maybe..the fact that he just left me hanging and waiting.i dunno, but it happened so quickly. yes we went out, it was fine, but it did not give me the 'kilig' moments..we also fought during those few weeks that we were together and i found him not to be the one i was comfortable hanging out with, not the one whom i love sharing my stories with.he was shy and i begin the conversation most of the time (which i don't like doing!) . it turns me off when a guy can't stand for his own and has no efforts in making a girl smile at least.. after a long fight, i did not like talking with him and i did not find him that appealing..maybe because i was not really in love with him.

then came the other..here it goes.. my co-worker mentioned to me that there's this guy that visits the office regularly ( a nephew of an indian head here in the office)..well he doesn't look that much indian, more like an arab or iraqi national perhaps.. i think he comes here because the guy supposed to collect was on a leave..anway, it started when an agent told me that 'that guy' was sending his regards to me. yes i see him regularly and find him attractive, but i didn't care that much because i did not personally know him.. and so i replied, "who is he? i think i don't know him" and there it started, we were introduced, we texted, we talked a little when he visits in the morning (it was prohibited!), people started to tease us. i was not that convinced coz i feared that i might get caught and asked to leave..it was march something i forgot, the night before the holy thursday. we went out, but with companions..we ate out somewhere in bf. i went home around 3am..we had our second date alone together at a nearby restaurant in better.. there we chatted and i got to know him a little not knowing that in the end i should have gotten to know him deeply..i introduced him to my classmates, i told them he was my bestfriend! hehe..we went to greenbelt and off to madi's place afterwards. they had karaoke,we just had a talk..we left at about 4am.we stayed in his car and talked until 5am.i missed that moment, just talking with him..i went home around 5:30 am..i didn't sleep anymore. we went to his brother in valenzuela the next day.. he was ok..better than him i think.. so there it goes, dates after dates, i won't go into too much details for i'm trying to move on and forget him. anyway, 6 months passed, i got to know him well (which i think i knew, but wasn't enough).. i was feeling aloof with him already. there didn't come a day that he didn't text me, but to my surprise, 3-5 days passed and still nothing. i was feeling a bit worried at that time coz i had no idea what was happening.. then, it was a monday i remember, he texted me asking if i was ok. so you know how the 'breaking up scene" goes. i don't have time, i want to be alone and concentrate on my work, you're way too better for me, i don't deserve you kind of lines.. i was sad, depressed, and i didn't know what to do that night. i couldn't sleep, i cried on my pillow, i thought of the times we've shared together and the fact that he wasn't there for me anymore.. i went to work the next day as if nothing happened, i couldn't help but cry still, i went halfday..i met up with my friend and shared the sorrow.. he couldn't help..my pain was not relieved.. i went home crying, the weather sympathized with me for it was drizzling.. i couldn't hide it anymore, my eyes were red and puffed up.. i went to my mom and talked with her, i cried still..she shared to me many things and sympathized with me, gave me advice, my dad came and he told me that maybe God is teaching me things that i had to learn this way. even if it was this hard..after those moments, i felt glad and thanked God that i had parents which i can confide to and teach me things which are for my own good.. the next day came, we still talked through text, he didn't want to meet up. through our conversation, i concluded that there was no third party and no other girl involved (i was wrong in the end) everyone was saying there is but i brushed them off thinking he was right. anyway, to continue my story, i got mad at him and texted him foul words which i later on regretted doing..i really really was mad at him..he was blaming me for my "niceness" and told me that we were not compatible.. so there, i felt guilty, i said sorry. there was silence and there was peace.. my friends told me that i shouldn't have said sorry. well, at least i was not at war with somebody.

so much for that..well, that lasted for about six months..we had our singles' camp on october end. then, i had this thingy on my nose which lasted for about two weeks! ahh..i had a plaster strip on my nose! imagine! people were looking at me everywhere i went.hay! i'm glad it's gone now.

december came, as usual, reunions, paskuhan, and stuff which reminds us it's the giving season..we still had contact with each other.he texts me once in a while just to see if i'm ok. i dunno, i keep on replying even i know the fact that he has a girlfriend..thanks to friendster! he even gave his mwuahs to me even though he's committed to somebody else..hay, he's like that i know so i don't take it too seriously.. i'm glad i was able to move on. but i know it's hard and it's even harder forgetting someone whom you usually talk to and shared moments with..i know it's part of growing up and i know some lessons had to be learned.what an experience! even as i write this blog, i still have bits of feelings for him but not that much compared to the past few months. it's been like 4 months now, he still texts me once in a while, quotes and stuff, but i don't reply..to avoid much more heartaches! i forgot to tell something, but i'm gonna write it on the next post for it happened just lately.

so there, so much for 2008. it's been ok, but i know that i regretted some things that i shouldn't have done, just keep it to myself..

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2007-08-30T07:01:00.000-07:00

listen up yo got a story to tell,,,eheheh...i always forget my password everytime i log in here...does that mean i'm gettin' older by the minute! nahh..i got so 'kilig' this day..eheh..my crush talked to me! ehehe..my officemate..cute!

the year 2007

2007-05-01T06:46:00.000-07:00

grabe! i almost forgot my password! anyway, my last update was like a century ago! so many things happened already and i dunno where to start!
thankfully, i have a job now..graphic designer..again! anyway, i design designs for children's clothes, the prints, , the style, everything that goes with it! in fact, this is wayyy much better than my old job..the environment is bearable. the people are friendly, and the boss, way much much better! maybe because of his age! haha..he seems like my grandpa! eheh.teaching me his "words of wisdom"..at least,,,and the place, it's just near..here in pque too. my place is too 'homy' i mean,since we're only two in the room, i don't turn on my lights(saving! eheh), the aircon just breezes over my face, i stare at the pc from 9-7, i put my feet up! (sometimes!!!), i put on my mp4 while staring at the computer the whole day! actually, sometimes, it tires me too. though i get incentives per design, the salary is kinda low for my working time. 9-7 everday and half day on saturdays..hay, but at least i get to wake up a little late, 7:30 would do! ehehe
another one, i have this 'friend' whom i have known since the year 2004 at a camp. we haven't talked personally(though we texted which lasted a month i think) since last 2006...through that 'talking' , i found him to be a really good friend and a person whom i can rely on..since then, we get to go out occassionally, and our friendship gets deeper by the moment, and to tell you the truth,,,i like him..hehe..secret lng! mwah!!

whatever things

2006-11-19T21:04:00.000-08:00

haha.it's so funny my dad is cooking tofu with virgin coconut as oil..i wonder what it tastes like? just had my interview with sm hypermarket, it gives me the creeps going there. the place is like so busy and has that office-like atmosphere. anyway, i still have a pending application at the hospital near our place. everytime i mention that i'd be working there my classmates just seem to laugh about it.i mean the connection is way to far.arts and sciences.whatever. anyway, it's just like 5-10 min away from our place. it will start on january i guess. the christmas season is way to near. the cold breeze is felt every night. hay, i'm feeling sleepy. i guess i won't be able to taste the so very much healthy meal!

it's been quite a while...

2006-10-15T20:50:00.000-07:00

hay! i have so many stories to tell! the last time i wrote here was about 2 months ago! imagine?!?
let's start off...
i had this job which lasted for only 2 and a half weeks..grabe.those days were so very hectic. i was a graphic artist at access point marketing and communications. leaving the office at 10pm was early. there was a time i stayed at the office overnight staring at the computer doing that lg thingy. the next day came and i was still there wearing the same clothes up until late afternoon. once, we left the office at 3 am. i rode the jeepney with men staring as if they were holdupers. i went to meetings with clients without even knowing what to do or to expect. it was my first time! plus the shouts and sermons of the boss. i couldn't stand a second with her. and so, i left.phew.that was an experience. at least i got 4+..
next was...
the typhoon 'milenyo' came and passed.and geez it was really a disaster. imagine the two trees facing our house fell! 1ooo plus posts of the meralco broke down. most of the billboards along edsa broke down as if some giant squeezed them. our creek overflowed! ( that was the typhoon 'neneng') and don't forget the unforgettable week of darkness! as if i lived a week in the past. we couldn't do anything! it was like the end of the world as they say. people were panic buying. smb was bombarded with people. all of our cellphones had low batteries. there was no available water refilling station.grabe. that was the first time i have experienced that kind of typhoon. there was minimal rain but the winds were like whistling in anger! imagine! those 2 hours were scary! i saw on tv refrigerators flying! (you thought it was only in the movies?!?!)
well, God took care of us who are still here and alive!
another one.
it's been 8 years since i got to know this guy and now he searched for me in friendster. luckily,he saw me.hehe. time really flies so very fast. a lot of things have changed.just wanna share.
last saturday naman...
it was so fun. after the saturday prayer meeting. we had this blood donation project in church. i was willing to donate but was not able because i was underweight! you should weigh at least 110 lbs. and above. i was only 100 flat! anyway, i just watched them...galing! after that we had this rummage sale in kalayaan! it was my first time to be a tindera at an ukay-ukay! hehe. we sold clothes of all sorts, bags, shoes, accessories, appliances, pangdagdag sa kalat, and a lot more. we were able to buy a retro lamp for 30php, beaded necklace for 20php, scarf for 5, a dress for 25, and earrings for 5! plus i got another earring for my salary!hehe! and a small army bag for free! i hope there would be another one. oops, i forgot, this rummage sale is a fund raising project of the women of MCBC for the RBIPT students.

2006-09-06T22:10:00.000-07:00

what do you your friends call you?	hannah,hans,wanch,bex
is your bestfriend a girl?	have lots
do you wear make-up?	sometimes..if there's a special occassion
do you wear shoes with high heels?	nowadays
do you like wearing dresses?	funky dresses
do you have short or long hair?	looooong..
one length or layered?	layered
how long does it take you to fix yourself up?	depends on the appointment..usually 30min.
do you have a "kikay" kit?	yep
if yes, what's inside?	concealer, curler, lipstick,blush-on...i seldom use them..
how long do you take a bath?	15-20 min
do you use conditioner?	nope..
how do you dry your hair?	towel..electric fan
what's your usual hairstyle?	hair down
do you panic if you have a pimple?	nope
do you often go to the salon?	nope..like once a year
when was the last time you went to the salon?	last month
do you have lots of crushes and share them with your friends?	yep!hehe
what do you like in a guy?	plain and simple..guys that can do household chores..
do you blush whenever you see that special person?	nope..i'm dark ehh...
do you paint your nails?	yep..especially my toes
what's your usual outfit?	tshirt+jeans+chucks
rubber shoes or sandals?	sneakers
how many piercings do you have?	one on each ear..i'd like to add more though
do you go on a diet?	nope
what brand do you use for shampoo, lip balm/lip gloss, soap/body wash, lotion?	pantene for my hair, not really that brand conscious when it comes to cosmetics..anything that will suit my skin tone...
rebond, relax? have you ever tried those?	nope
do you put cucumber in your eyes?	nope
do you fix yourself anywhere?	yep!
is it fun being a girl?	yep!
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

082506

2006-09-04T01:15:00.000-07:00

phew! what a night!!!
we went to this fund-raising concert at ccf alabang. first i didn't want to go because i feel that the ticket costs too much.250php for 2 bands only and i didn't really like those two artists that much. rocksteddy and barbie..well, michelle texted and texted me to buy.carmel insisted too. she said that this is a benefit concert...and the profit will go for church purposes and so on..
so there, when i heard that lou was coming i texted michelle right away to get some tickets..i mean ticket.
friday night came,,,we were there...they had their tickets with them already but i didn't have mine yet coz i haven't paid yet. i texted michelle when we arrived. she said the tickets were sold at the 4th floor. so there we went.going out of the elevator, we were greeted by these foreigners. a man with his two kids. i didn't even look at them for i was looking for michelle coz she said she was there..but then, the man handed me a ticket.so i said, no thanks i'm looking for my friend which i shall buy tickets from. but he insisted on giving me the ticket coz his wife wasn't able to go..i was so surprised! wow! i can't believe what had just happened! i really thanked them..i worked HARD for that 250 bucks!
anyway, we got these really nice spot. we were standing all the time but could really see a good view of the artists.when rocksteddy performed..i fell in love with the band right away.i took pictures and video of their performances..i really liked the guitarist/back-up vocals of the band..jowi ramos..hehe..the 'lagi mo nalang akong dinedeadma' song really fired the audience! the poetic part was replaced by a really funny performance! after that was barbie's turn. it was quite a mellow-down for the audience. her songs were so soft it feels like she was just breathing!hehe..after that was the photography and autograph sessions! it was really a blast! we had this picture taken with the band and teddy himself! then with barbie...our pins were signed too! wow..and because of that i was able to treat carmel and sarah at mcdonald's! fun fun night it was!

one word...

2006-07-06T22:07:00.000-07:00

ennui. stars. pillows. pigs. blank. deep. violet. orange. green. laughter.
sand. starfish. seahorse. tears. fields. corn. fancy. art. photography.nailpolish.
pastels. chips. rainbow. solitude. banana. shakes. cotton. marshmallows.
slippers. bible. vintage. chucks. crochet. suns. venus. bangs. coins. jeans.
paisleys. jewelry. clocks. sunset. pasta. potatoes. chicken. roses. gadgets.
turtles. beads. totes. dreams. blogs. pencils. fishes. butterflies. dragonflies.
white. kaleidoscope. gold. stripes. dots. sleep. photoshop. unicorns. popcorn.
mirrors. shells. cabbage. charcoal. sandwich. gummybears. soccer. strawberry.
chameleon.

nyork!nyork!

2006-07-02T20:09:00.000-07:00

heya guyzzzz!!!!
i can't believe it! i'm writing a new blog!!!! yey!
first of all...umm, when you have an online blog spot, you can't avoid the fact that someone on whatever side of the earth maybe reading what you are writing secretly! arghhhhh..i hate that.
well, anyway, since that came to my mind..i believe i won't write down what i was thinking for the past days...ahhhhh.
so there, i just remembered...

heya! heya!

2006-06-30T21:55:00.000-07:00

hayyy, i think im going to have a new blog..this blog seems to be overflowing with postings already! hayayay!!
right now i have nothing to do. sometimes, i get bored not having to do anything here at home! pa said that i should have a business or something while waiting for my job applications! ya right i want to but don't have any idea what that so called 'business' would be. paintings? accessories?eload? sari-sari store?!?! what the?!?!
well anyway, i have fun reading other people's blogs but when it comes to my turn writing, i kind of look for the words to say, i have lots of stories by the way but i'm just so 'tamaad' to write it down.
ok...new year's resolution: don't be lazy!!
hehe..new year has long been gone..ayayayyy!
right now, i dunno what i feel...stomach ache?hehe
it's good that there's this thing called online journal..before i had to write down every experience with my bare hands! -like now i'm not doing it! hehe- i mean typing is much more relaxing than writing..but i think writing gives more meaning to what you're saying.ya, for me it does. also, reading what you have been writing before..all that nonsense and stuff!hehe

way toooo long

2006-06-28T03:33:00.000-07:00

hayy, it's been way toooo long....cobwebs everywhere...shishhhh...so, what's up...mmmmm....there, 2 months of job hunting and skin burning, still i don't have any job yet..i'm praying tlga for a job that will suit me..coz some openings that i've had interview with doesn't seem to interest me. i dunno if i have a problem or somethinggggg. anywayzzzz, tomorrow i still have one, and i still don't know how to go there...hayy, how kaya? i can't make pa drive me there naman coz he has class.. and it's at 930 in the morning! hayy!!! anyway, i'll tell you all about it when i come back..

2006-04-17T03:08:00.000-07:00

hayy it's me again...after a trip to lucena, my back's really molting!!!hehe..i can feel it..yeah...now i'm excited to swim again..on the beach naman sana..the water was fine but it was freezin cold...and dirty..hehe..

i had my first interview this morning and it was kinda ok..i did not get nervous but i think i did not do my best during the interview...la lng..i just felt it...

the hardest part...la parte mas dificil

2006-04-11T21:27:00.000-07:00

the hardest part...And the hardest part Was letting go not taking part Was the hardest part And the strangest thing was waiting for that bell to ring It was the strangest start I could feel it go down It is sweet I could taste in my mouth Silver lining the clouds Oh and I I wish that I could work it out And the hardest part Was letting go not taking part You really broke my heart And I tried to sing But I couldn't think of anything That was the hardest part I could feel it go down You left the sweetest taste in my mouth Your silver lining the clouds Oh and I Oh and I I wonder what it's all about I wonder what it's all about Everything I know is wrong Everything I do just comes undone And everything is torn apart Oh and it's the hardest part That's the hardest part Yeah that's the hardest part That's the hardest part
La parte más difícil... Y la parte mas difícilFue dejarlo ir no tomar parteFue la parte mas difícilY lo más extrañoFue esperar porque sonase aquel timbreFue el comienzo mas extrañoPude sentir como se ibaEs dulce si pudiera saborearlo en mi bocaPlata envolviendo las nubesOh y yo...Deseaba que pudiera funcionarY la parte más difícilFue dejarlo ir no tomar parteTú me partiste realmente el corazonE intenté cantarPero no podia pensar en nadaEsa fue la parte mas difícilPude sentir como se ibaTú dejaste el sabor más dulce en mi boca Tu plata envolviendo las nubes Oh y yo.Oh y yo.Deseo que todo sea esoDeseo que todo sea esoTodo lo que sé es incorrecto Todo lo que hago viene mal Y todo se torna aparteOh y esa fue la parte más dificilFue la parte más dificilOh y esa fue la parte más dificilFue la parte más dificil

hayy...lyf

2006-04-11T07:29:00.000-07:00

after the incident that happened in zambales..every memory which i wanted to erase seemed to come back. just because of that i remembered everything as if it was just last week or even yesterday.well, it has been 3 years now. and i was hoping i could forget all those which happened in the past but still couldn't!he brought all my memories back! aghhh!!! i just couldn't understand why he kept on telling me that it was not because of another person but from what i remember, i spied on his email account(my mistake!) and i saw what they were talking about even during the 'labo' times, and it seems that they were getting along pretty well. he hasn't mentioned anything about her. but about me,,,that i did't deserve him and everything..ekekekek..people, they don't always say what's really inside even if they're drunk or something..

zambales trip

2006-04-07T20:26:00.000-07:00

my shoulders and face are like so burnt that it aches..aww..due to our high noon swimming on the beach i feel like i'm so so dark na!!!
wed: i got to the victory liner past seven and was kinda surprised coz of the few classmates that were there. the call time was supposed to be 630 sharp but as what they call 'filipino time', it was again repeated. so we waited for the others a little bit and rode the bus na..naiwan n nga cna mikel e..ang bagal ka c..hehe. aun, the journey started.. first stopover was in pampanga, we ate merienda there..next stop we were in olongapo..the travel was kinda far ha...town after town passed and then finally we were there..the ambiance of the beach was already felt when i got down the bus..aun ang init s bahay ng lola nila jayson..dun kmi ng stay first..we dropped all our bags and ate lunch...tas we waited for the others to arrive then we got off to the beach..it was a tricycle away..the first beach we went to was a little far and there were very few resources there. we brought our own tent to put our bags..we swam and got jellyfishes..there were a lot!!!! they come in different sizes..some are super big and some are cute little ones.. you feel like you're holdin a jelly ace on your hands when you hold a jellyfish.hehe. after that..it was about 10pm when we went home.at the house we ate dinner then went to their other house to spend the night. it was so hot in that house..i felt like i was in a sauna all the time..some of the others drank while some stayed inside and slept na.we were like in an orphanage squeezed together..hehe..that night was steaming hot..i didn't have a good night sleep.the next morning we woke up early and went to the other house. there, we cooked breakfast and made tambay till 2 or 3 pm. we just slept and talked and cooked and prepared for the overnight stay at the beach.
at the beach we rented this table with a single light and 2 benches for 600 pesos..we had no plan of sleeping so there was just a mattress for those who wanted to sleep. so there we swam till we had our dinner.our dinner was ok..we ate in our little own plastic bags.after that we took a bath. while some had their drinking sessions again, we put up a bonfire and started roasting marshmallows and hotdogs.wow..sarap..so there, we were kinda bored coz most of the time they were talking about lotr which i like but not that avid..kring, cheryl, and i went to the videokehan.bsta many things happened but it was worth it.we got a free ice cold pop and some chips and coins for the videoke.hehe. then we went back..i had the time to talk to one of my close friends in college which was kinda relieving.basta, secret un. i slept on some kinda plastic tents .it was so cold and i can see all the stars that night. by the way it was 6 am already..hehe..i woke up at about 730 pm..it was so very very cold.kring and i got out of the tent and transferred where we first slept on. the sun was shining on us while the cold wind was still blowing. i slept for about 5-10 mins.then they said that the boat was there na.so there, we rode the boat and went to this coral reef. i was glad that it was not deep. the water was like up to my waist or something. the fishes were so cute. we were also able to eat a live sea urchin and those grape-like seaweeds.the seaweeds were fine, but the sea urchin-eww.anyway, after an hour we went back to the beach. we swam high noon! we were the only ones at the beach coz of the heavy sun rays.the tide was going high already. i decided to stop na coz i was feeling kinda cold already. after that we packed up and went to jayson's house. there we cooked again and packed all our things. at about 3 we left the house. we were on board the bus at about 3:30 pm. my fault i stayed on the back seat of the bus.second to the last that was!i couldn't sleep for the fear of turning over. it was nauseaic! if there is such a word. so there our trip ends. the thing that i wouldn't forget was that i was able to talk heart to heart to my very close friend after 2 years of misunderstandings.hay, maybe that was why i was there...

burnt

2006-03-20T03:02:00.000-08:00

burnt as u may see it but still it doesn't feel so. more swimming! more summer! more sun! still hoping for a big summer vacation. well, last friday was what you may call as 'bitin'. i played lots of stuff so my body still aches up to now. we swam, tossed an earthball, kicked a soccer ball, slapped a shuttlecock, baby-sat!, ate and ate..hayy tiring for a day..

camp adVneture!

2006-03-11T00:49:00.000-08:00

we went to this camp creatives adVenture. it was held at ua&p.
i was so happy that my teammate and i were included in the top 6!!!wow. we really didn't think we would be included coz we thought that only one team would be included in a group with the same juror. actually there were four groups for a juror.then there were about 6 other jurors which meant that there were also lots of teams. we started at 6am! imagine, the defense was at 11..our roommates wasn't even able to sleep the whole night because of their work! and for us, we slept the whole night! hehe...anyway, our concept was about being stuck because of not reading. don't get left behind. read more, move further. the tvc was about these teenage girls strolling at the mall, chit-chatting, texting, and doing all those techie stuff..they were looking at some people doing like this--ask me nlng. it was like this hand thingy..basta... when they were about to go up in the escalator they were stuck in the middle..it wouldn't move! while the others doing that hand thingy could reach the top! why? because they don't read. they're stuck on what they know. the print ad was about this guy trying to move forward but couldn't coz he was running on a stationary walkway ( if that's what they call it)!! the others , with the hand signal could reach their destination! read more, move further!

first day of march

2006-03-01T22:38:00.000-08:00

i never knew that march 1 would be filled with so much surprises!
1:45pm: first thing that happened was the announcement of our thesis grades. i never really expected anything much. i really thought that my grade would be soso or just ok having it in the line of 2...2 would be better than 2 something. 225 was on my mind. the time came when i was at the edge of my seat for our dept. head was announcing each one's grade. even those with low grades! hay, we all wished that we were not there to hear our low grade! and aside from that there was a projector in front that everyone else could see what your grade was!hay what a shame! anyway, after a little while, when surname's a-r were finished, came surname's that started with the letter s! then it came, i can't believe what i was seeing for i was sitting way back,what a big relief when they announced that my grade was 1.5! hay! i was so thankful to God! it was really not expected!
7:00pm: it was our esthetics subject and we hated it.not because of the subject but because of the prof. last sem i got a really low score of 3 having failed just one exam! anyway, our "prof" was stamping each one's paper when suddenly....earthquake! can u imagine we were on the 6th floor so the shaking was really really felt! i said 'shucks' so loudly that my prof got mad saying, o baket?' she didn't know that the ground was shaking for she was the only one standing!hehe! i was so nervous that i stood up wanting to leave the class! my classmate got his backpack already and started to stand up. but,,, our prof did not want us to, she said, stay on your seats!!!! i was thinking of what happened to leyte, that landslide caused by an earthquake...anyway, after a few moments of silence....it stopped! i really prayed that it would stop.. i was so thankful that the Lord anwered my prayer!

semi-finished

2006-02-20T04:54:00.000-08:00

hay..just finished passing my reivisions.i can breathe now.hehe. nothing to do at the moment. enjoying my free time sleeping,watching tv, reading, surfing, eating.i just don't want to come to a point where i would be bored doing nothing.as of now, i have only like 3 to 4 subjects to do. taxation, rizal, phc, compo..the others, finals na. hay, i still don't know my grade.

thesis time...overtime...

2006-02-18T04:27:00.001-08:00

hayy..our defense had just passed. i can't believe the most anticipated or yet most dreadful day has just finished. i was so thankful that my jury was not reallly that 'terror'. i was speaking casually like to a friend. funny coz i was making chika with the guest juror after the defense. it was so casual.but, even so, i still don't know my grade. from what i know, i think my grade's not really that high. i know they give low grades back when i was still in first year but hopefullly not now.hehe.i'm not naman aiming for a grade higher than i deserve. i just want to prove something to myself. that i can do better now. makes me even more eager to face a new challenge.hay.whatever.

thesis time...overtime...

2006-02-18T04:27:00.000-08:00

test

2006-01-20T06:28:00.000-08:00

i can't believe it's prelim week.i don't even feel it.maybe tomorrow i will! 2 tests will be taken. 2 tests of 2 boring subjects! rizal and taxation! hay! i'm not yet reviewing coz i 'm stuck doing this.

thesis

2006-01-17T16:51:00.000-08:00

hayy..time flies a little bit too fast..there's almost about 2 weeks to go before the drawing of lots and another week after that for our most dreadful day-deliberation!! now i'm supposed to be doing my tvc studies and collaterals but i'm stuck here doing this thingy..hehe.well anyway, i wonder what happened to all of my other ads..my adviser got it and supposed to put more color to it..i hope it's kinda finished by now..this week, all my other ads..billboard, tvc, radio, collaterals, should be finished.next week, book..

man of grease

2006-01-16T16:05:00.000-08:00

taong grasa! while going home from school one night, i was in the jeepney looking outside quiapo when i saw this beggar with clutches...makes me wonder...what happened kaya?!? well, anyway, i asked my "nursing" friends on how the hospital dealt with beggars being rushed to the emergency...i asked them, " what if the beggar had a terrible accident..let's say he was shot or something, how will he be charged? i mean who will pay for his stay"..the government..how will the nurses like hold him if he's so dirty and stuff..makes me think...will someone even have the courage to help him?

saturday

2006-01-10T16:05:00.000-08:00

saturday...my birthday!!! so near yet so very very far..so much things might happen before this special day.

hibernation!

2006-01-10T06:00:00.000-08:00

i'm back..after a long while. actually i forgot all about this blog thingy until i saw my friend's blog which was kinda cool. it made me laugh..a little..so i decided to post again..
well, it's thesis time...just finished my last shoot...hopefully it will be the last...i went into 3 malls today...hayy,it makes me soOo tired...but...i can't rest until i've done my goals for the day...2 ads at least..
so,there i went up the stairs, down the stairs, up the stairs, then down again..
hayy!! i need a break....

pizza galore!

2005-06-01T09:11:00.000-07:00

long time no pizza.hehe.
reunion with highschool friends.
hay.

blanksmile

a rollercoaster mind...

a night at the hospital

a *sweet* night

coincidence? na ah..

starting the year right

yikes!

aahh..biggie!

whatever...

two thousand and eight

...

the year 2007

whatever things

it's been quite a while...

082506

one word...

nyork!nyork!

heya! heya!

way toooo long

the hardest part...la parte mas dificil

hayy...lyf

zambales trip

burnt

camp adVneture!

first day of march

semi-finished

thesis time...overtime...

thesis time...overtime...

test

thesis

man of grease

saturday

hibernation!

pizza galore!

a sweet night